Not having to worry 24-7.
I still worry, but its not the same. The knots in the pit of my stomach are gone.
The place is so great, the staff is awesome. Mom seems to like it, most days. I guess that's not toobad. I have days I dont like everything too.
The nurse called me today, she is so sweet - I just love her already. You know how you meet someone and you just KNOW they will be important and special to you. She's one of those. I need to get her to pose for a picture or something. Anyway, mom lost a filling, and she was just calling me to let me know that she lost a filling and they had already made a dental appointment for her and they were getting it fixed today. Just letting me know about it. I'm informed, and involved, but not stressed by it all.
Its surreal, to know that someone (a professional) is taking better care of her than I could - and the stress is off of us.
It may sound harsh, but I am grateful. Because, I can be a daughter, not a caregiver. I'm still a care taker, but I dont have to be beat down by the "job" of it. I can be a mom, a daughter and wife, and still love my mom with out being in the minute to minute worry of if everything is ok.
I feel me coming back - laughter with the kids, having the time and energy to care about myself. I've been able to go med free (whohoo!) and make it. I've started eating healthier and getting exercise.
God works out things for his children - thank goodness. He orchestrated all the events and lined them up so that we'd be accepted into the perfect place for her at this time in our journey.
No comments:
Post a Comment